Tired Tuesday

I think I need to whinge a little (as my aussie friends say.)

I am tired.

I am physically tired...there just are not enough hours in the day to do all I need/want to do.

I am mentally tired....so many worries going through my head right now as I am up against a monster of my own creation.

I am creatively tired....not that I'm that creative, but having to constantly come up with new ways to do things at school, or new meals to cook b/c I'm in a rut, ...I am just about out of ideas.

I am civically tired....all the demands of my time for Junior Auxiliary (I still have to get that picture mailed off to the national publication) and PTO (I still haven't typed up last month's meeting minutes to have ready at this month's meeting this week.)

I am tired of being patient with children who never.shut.up.at.school. SERIOUSLY...who told these children that they can just talk when they want and do whatever they want whenever they want? They seriously never stop talking, even when you look right at them and tell them to, and they say "ok", but then they just go right back to talking to themselves or their neighbors with no regard for what you just requested. They do.not.listen.at.all.to.ANYTHING you tell them to do. So frustrating. They aren't bad, they just don't listen.

I am responsibility tired.
I don't want to have to make all the decisions anymore. What to eat, which bills get paid this month, where to go, what to wear, .....can I just sit on the couch and not move for a week and have someone else make all the decisions?

I am tired of worrying about things...that which I can control, and that which I can't. Actually...I don't worry so much about that which is out of my control...I just need to take charge and do something about that which I can. It just scares me. Again...decision making.

I am tired of being tired. Day in, day out...same ole stuff.
Get up, go to school, stay til 5:00 or later, come home, find something for dinner, go to Greg's, veg for awhile, come home, go to bed, start all over the next day.
Honestly, going to Greg's is the only mind saver I have right now. At least there I can do nothing if I choose, I can be pampered a bit, I can just BE.

I'm just tired.
But...I've been promised it will be ok.
Matt 11:28-29 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.

I know that THAT is the only way I've made it this far.

END WHINGE....
have a wonderful Tuesday!

Comments

Melanie said…
Oh, I shouldn't have, but you made me lauagh! My Dad still teaches, and I hear from him almost everyday about the chatter. My own daughter is a chatter box, and it makes me crazy sometimes. She'll starve before she'll stop talking long enough to eat! Bless you teachers for doing what you do. I truly believe teachers should be paid more than doctors and pilots. Chin up!
November 10, 2009 at 9:15 AM
E @ Scottsville said…
Hey, guess what?!

I GET IT!!!

I really do.

However, Iwent to bed early last night (10pm) and feel pretty good after getting 8 full hours of sleep. WOO HOO!

Hope you get rest! But good luck on that decision-making thing. It's not gonna go away anytime soon. And when it does, you'll be in a nursing home wishing you got to make the decisions YOURSELF! =0)
November 10, 2009 at 2:23 PM
Kecia said…
Love the ending! We have to hold on to that, don't we?
You know, you almost had enough "tireds" for 10 on the 10th-ha!
November 10, 2009 at 4:49 PM
He & Me + 3 said…
Get some rest my friend...I can totally relate. I too am responsibility tired. Sheesh..being a grown up and mom is a tough job:)
November 10, 2009 at 7:27 PM
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