Weekly catch up...again
It's 9:35am Saturday morning.
I've been reading diaries for 2 hours...and am still not all caught up yet. One site finished (not so many friends there anymore), another more than halfway caught up on...and one not touched yet.
I feel bad for not being a better reader/friend lately. There are so many excuses reasons why....but noone really wants to hear them. At least there is Facebook...which is probably WHY I haven't been a better reader. I keep up with most everyone on there, so I don't feel like I'm missing out on your lives. But then when I come here, I realize that I have, indeed, missed stuff!
and I do apologize and thank you for sticking by me.
Since today is suppose to be a Mom and Molly at Home Day, I will keep this brief and do bulletpoints. (**e**...I can't seem to do bulletpoints on here. They won't even copy/paste from Word. Oh well.)
Family Life
Trey is now scheduled for surgery on Dec 21st for his shoulder. The doctors don't know exactly what they are looking for yet, since it is not a sports related injury. He didn't DO anything to it, so they've got to get in there and see what is causing it to dislocate so easily and frequently. Will start out as laproscopic, but could turn into full blown opening him up and digging around. He is nervous, of course, but not so much about the procedure. Mostly about the limited use of his arm for a month.
Trey got his first deer last weekend on the last day of deer season! a 4 point, but a BIG deer.
He was so excited.
Matt's idea of hunting was playing his gameboy in the woods!
Speaking of Matthew, he is still thriving at his school. He called to tell me that he bought me Christmas presents the other night. He had earned Awana Bucks at church for memorizing scripture and spent them on presents for me.
I love that kid!
Molly's first school dance is tonight. She has been beyond excited for a month now, counting down the days. We are now to 8 hours and 19 minutes! I had to borrow money from Greg to buy her a dress. I was hoping to spend no more than $40 on a whole ensemble..and did well. After shopping all over town here and finding nothing, we headed to Kohl's in Texarkana. Found a dress there..originally $60, marked down to $30.50. I had a 15% discount coupon, and got it for $25.
*trying on the dress
It needed a jacket tho, being spaghetti straps. I remembered a short black jacket at Stage back in Hope, so off we went. It was regularly $28, but marked down to $19.99. More than I wanted to pay, but she needed it. Got up to the register and it totalled $8 something. Cashier says, "wait a minute..I'm giving you the discount" and my total ended up being $7! WOO HOO! all that and a pair of black tights kept me right at the $40 goal. And don't worry--you KNOW there will be pictures!
My mother has been diagnosed as "depressed". She's been having tremors in her arms/hands, and along with the other usual things like high blood pressure and not sleeping for the past 2 years, finally got a doctor to help find out what is going on. They put her on 2 meds..one antidepressant, and one anti-seizure. There's some kind of misfire between her brain and nerves. When she lays down to go to bed, it takes her body about an hour to get the message from her brain that it's bedtime. These new drugs are helping and she's actually had a couple night's good sleep for the first time in years, but it's affecting her fine motor control. She can't do her plastic work/needlepoint type stuff right now b/c with her lack of vision, she has to depend on being able to count/feel the holes in the plastic canvas, and she can't do that right now. She just sent me an unedited email to show how her hands and brain aren't in sync, and I replied that it was a good thing I read 6 yr old for a living, b/c I could decipher it, and would probably have to become her translator for others! The doc told her that she was on the verge of a nervous breakdown, and Mom replied that it would have to wait til January b/c she didn't have time for it right now!
Maggie is beginning her 2nd week of being in heat. So far, not too much trouble. She looks so funny in her diaper tho.
*and yes...she's gonna get groomed in the next week or so...just waiting on a time to take her. Greg's paying for it!
Personal Life
Greg and I are wonderful. And I leave it at that, for now.
School Life
Busy as usual. Tutoring Monday and Tuesdays til after 5:00. Been having meetings on Wednesdays til 5:00 and Book Club on Thursdays til 5:30.
PTO fundraisers are over til February (the big ones anyway....still have our monthly box top collections and Walmart bag recycling, and Tyson Chicken bag top collecting going on)
One more week til Christmas break. I canNOT believe how fast the semester has flown. I know I said that last year..but this one has gone by even faster! I must be getting old!
I guess that's about it.
I won't detail my financial woes, b/c as one friend put it, I have way more than a lot of people, and many blessings in my life. And she's right. I do. And I know it. I do. I'm just not use to not being able to pay my bills and being months behind. And I'm at the point in my life now that I am noticing the difference in what I can give my children versus what their friends are getting...and it hurts me. They don't complain..but it hurts ME. (and yes, I could ask Greg for help...and he does help out, providing dinner most nights, but it's not his place to support me, yet. So until then, I'm still doing this on my own even though it means living on a diet of Ramen noodles and grilled cheese sandwiches and Raisin Bran cereal for the past week b/c it's all I have til payday, except for the one supper and leftover lunch of macaroni and cheese I got to have when I found a box in the back of the cupboard)
But I will share this story...b/c it completely tore me up.
We had a Literacy meeting Wednesday. Molly is friends with Mackenzie, daughter of my friend Mandy, and granddaughter of my friend and Literacy Coach Robin. When Molly, Mackenzie, their other friend Summer, and Mackenzie's cousin Parker, all arrived at school Wed, they came into our meeting that had already started to let us know they were there and where they'd be while we met.
All of the other 3 kids were given their own personal mini laptops in their little cases, to play on while we met. Robin had them on the table, and had been holding them during the school day for them. As the kids came up to get them, Molly just stood back watching. Her eyes going from each child to the laptop they were being handed. It wasn't any big deal...nothing anyone else noticed...Robin was just handing the kids their things...but there stood Molly, as the others got their computers, so they could leave the room. Watching my daughter watch them...knowing she did not have one...it completely broke my heart. She never said a word, and just followed the others out of the room. And I'm sure that they let her play on their's...but it broke MY heart knowing that they all had one and she didn't. That they all had something she couldnt' have b/c *I* could not afford to get it for her.
I felt like such a failure as a mom at that moment. It was all I could do not to cry in front of everyone.
Molly has never said anything, nor given it any thought. But that memory of her face haunts me.
I know in the grand scheme of things, this is no big deal. There will be many many times that she goes without while others have things she doesn't. I've never been able to "keep up with the Joneses" and probably never will. It's always bothered me for ME...but now it's hit home that I can't do it for my kids. I know you will all tell me that my kids have love and know they are loved and all that stuff...and I know everybit of it is true. I KNOW all that stuff. But that doesn't stop the feelings of hurt in my heart of not being able to give them all they want. And they don't need everything they want...but I want to be able to provide it for them. And I can't.
Ok...done sharing now. Today is about me and Molly time. Catching up on Ugly Betty, and Glee..we are up to episode 11 now, so only a few more to go to be completely caught up. My wonderful friend Sandee sent me the episodes I couldn't find to watch online, and altho I'm not "hooked" like so many ppl say they are..I do find it a cute show.
We are also wrapping up the few presents I already have purchased...those that will have to be mailed as soon as payday rolls around Tuesday. And then of course...dance preparations will begin around 5pm.
Oh, and I think Greg and Alex are bringing over the treadmill for me to have here. I'm the only one that uses it, and it's right now in the spot where his Christmas tree goes...so, there ya have it. A great way to put it to good use and get it out of his way.
So, stay warm wherever you are. It's a cold 38 degrees here. And have a Glorious Day!
I've been reading diaries for 2 hours...and am still not all caught up yet. One site finished (not so many friends there anymore), another more than halfway caught up on...and one not touched yet.
I feel bad for not being a better reader/friend lately. There are so many
and I do apologize and thank you for sticking by me.
Since today is suppose to be a Mom and Molly at Home Day, I will keep this brief and do bulletpoints. (**e**...I can't seem to do bulletpoints on here. They won't even copy/paste from Word. Oh well.)
Family Life
Trey is now scheduled for surgery on Dec 21st for his shoulder. The doctors don't know exactly what they are looking for yet, since it is not a sports related injury. He didn't DO anything to it, so they've got to get in there and see what is causing it to dislocate so easily and frequently. Will start out as laproscopic, but could turn into full blown opening him up and digging around. He is nervous, of course, but not so much about the procedure. Mostly about the limited use of his arm for a month.
Trey got his first deer last weekend on the last day of deer season! a 4 point, but a BIG deer.
He was so excited.
Matt's idea of hunting was playing his gameboy in the woods!
Speaking of Matthew, he is still thriving at his school. He called to tell me that he bought me Christmas presents the other night. He had earned Awana Bucks at church for memorizing scripture and spent them on presents for me.
I love that kid!
Molly's first school dance is tonight. She has been beyond excited for a month now, counting down the days. We are now to 8 hours and 19 minutes! I had to borrow money from Greg to buy her a dress. I was hoping to spend no more than $40 on a whole ensemble..and did well. After shopping all over town here and finding nothing, we headed to Kohl's in Texarkana. Found a dress there..originally $60, marked down to $30.50. I had a 15% discount coupon, and got it for $25.
*trying on the dress
It needed a jacket tho, being spaghetti straps. I remembered a short black jacket at Stage back in Hope, so off we went. It was regularly $28, but marked down to $19.99. More than I wanted to pay, but she needed it. Got up to the register and it totalled $8 something. Cashier says, "wait a minute..I'm giving you the discount" and my total ended up being $7! WOO HOO! all that and a pair of black tights kept me right at the $40 goal. And don't worry--you KNOW there will be pictures!
My mother has been diagnosed as "depressed". She's been having tremors in her arms/hands, and along with the other usual things like high blood pressure and not sleeping for the past 2 years, finally got a doctor to help find out what is going on. They put her on 2 meds..one antidepressant, and one anti-seizure. There's some kind of misfire between her brain and nerves. When she lays down to go to bed, it takes her body about an hour to get the message from her brain that it's bedtime. These new drugs are helping and she's actually had a couple night's good sleep for the first time in years, but it's affecting her fine motor control. She can't do her plastic work/needlepoint type stuff right now b/c with her lack of vision, she has to depend on being able to count/feel the holes in the plastic canvas, and she can't do that right now. She just sent me an unedited email to show how her hands and brain aren't in sync, and I replied that it was a good thing I read 6 yr old for a living, b/c I could decipher it, and would probably have to become her translator for others! The doc told her that she was on the verge of a nervous breakdown, and Mom replied that it would have to wait til January b/c she didn't have time for it right now!
Maggie is beginning her 2nd week of being in heat. So far, not too much trouble. She looks so funny in her diaper tho.
*and yes...she's gonna get groomed in the next week or so...just waiting on a time to take her. Greg's paying for it!
Personal Life
Greg and I are wonderful. And I leave it at that, for now.
School Life
Busy as usual. Tutoring Monday and Tuesdays til after 5:00. Been having meetings on Wednesdays til 5:00 and Book Club on Thursdays til 5:30.
PTO fundraisers are over til February (the big ones anyway....still have our monthly box top collections and Walmart bag recycling, and Tyson Chicken bag top collecting going on)
One more week til Christmas break. I canNOT believe how fast the semester has flown. I know I said that last year..but this one has gone by even faster! I must be getting old!
I guess that's about it.
I won't detail my financial woes, b/c as one friend put it, I have way more than a lot of people, and many blessings in my life. And she's right. I do. And I know it. I do. I'm just not use to not being able to pay my bills and being months behind. And I'm at the point in my life now that I am noticing the difference in what I can give my children versus what their friends are getting...and it hurts me. They don't complain..but it hurts ME. (and yes, I could ask Greg for help...and he does help out, providing dinner most nights, but it's not his place to support me, yet. So until then, I'm still doing this on my own even though it means living on a diet of Ramen noodles and grilled cheese sandwiches and Raisin Bran cereal for the past week b/c it's all I have til payday, except for the one supper and leftover lunch of macaroni and cheese I got to have when I found a box in the back of the cupboard)
But I will share this story...b/c it completely tore me up.
We had a Literacy meeting Wednesday. Molly is friends with Mackenzie, daughter of my friend Mandy, and granddaughter of my friend and Literacy Coach Robin. When Molly, Mackenzie, their other friend Summer, and Mackenzie's cousin Parker, all arrived at school Wed, they came into our meeting that had already started to let us know they were there and where they'd be while we met.
All of the other 3 kids were given their own personal mini laptops in their little cases, to play on while we met. Robin had them on the table, and had been holding them during the school day for them. As the kids came up to get them, Molly just stood back watching. Her eyes going from each child to the laptop they were being handed. It wasn't any big deal...nothing anyone else noticed...Robin was just handing the kids their things...but there stood Molly, as the others got their computers, so they could leave the room. Watching my daughter watch them...knowing she did not have one...it completely broke my heart. She never said a word, and just followed the others out of the room. And I'm sure that they let her play on their's...but it broke MY heart knowing that they all had one and she didn't. That they all had something she couldnt' have b/c *I* could not afford to get it for her.
I felt like such a failure as a mom at that moment. It was all I could do not to cry in front of everyone.
Molly has never said anything, nor given it any thought. But that memory of her face haunts me.
I know in the grand scheme of things, this is no big deal. There will be many many times that she goes without while others have things she doesn't. I've never been able to "keep up with the Joneses" and probably never will. It's always bothered me for ME...but now it's hit home that I can't do it for my kids. I know you will all tell me that my kids have love and know they are loved and all that stuff...and I know everybit of it is true. I KNOW all that stuff. But that doesn't stop the feelings of hurt in my heart of not being able to give them all they want. And they don't need everything they want...but I want to be able to provide it for them. And I can't.
Ok...done sharing now. Today is about me and Molly time. Catching up on Ugly Betty, and Glee..we are up to episode 11 now, so only a few more to go to be completely caught up. My wonderful friend Sandee sent me the episodes I couldn't find to watch online, and altho I'm not "hooked" like so many ppl say they are..I do find it a cute show.
We are also wrapping up the few presents I already have purchased...those that will have to be mailed as soon as payday rolls around Tuesday. And then of course...dance preparations will begin around 5pm.
Oh, and I think Greg and Alex are bringing over the treadmill for me to have here. I'm the only one that uses it, and it's right now in the spot where his Christmas tree goes...so, there ya have it. A great way to put it to good use and get it out of his way.
So, stay warm wherever you are. It's a cold 38 degrees here. And have a Glorious Day!
Comments
P.S. Molly looks cute in that fancy dress.
Hugs,
Mimi
You're funny girl. Longwinded like ME!!!
Love that "hunting" on a playstation in the woods. That's my kinda hunter! It's less bloody. =0)