Where did Peter Cottontail go?


I've decided it really sucks to get old.....
not as in I'm getting old, but as in, my kids are growing up....
and things are not the same.

They don't get excited over the things they use use to.
Holidays aren't as much fun.
It either takes more to please them (Christmas/birthdays)
or they are "too big" for the frivolity of it all (Easter Bunnies, Trick or Treating).

Oh...they still enjoy getting an Easter basket...which of course I still fill for them, but the overall "holiday spirit" is gone.

Maybe it's just b/c this Easter holiday has not been normal.

See...our "usual" Easter starts with a big family brunch on Saturday, followed by an Easter egg hunt for the kids. Then all my children come home with me and we dye eggs and the Easter Bunny comes and go to church and I sing in the cantata...then we either have lunch together out or at home where my meager culinary skills are still appreciated by hungry kids who don't care what we have to eat!

This year....
no Easter Brunch.
1) my (non-biological)sister's 40th bday is Tuesday, and her baby is now almost 2 and her "real" mom is in from CA, and they are doing a thing at her house, nevermind that we had planned a combo Easter Brunch/bday celebration for her and my mom (whose bday is Monday).... noooooooooo...her stupid husband had to go and ruin those plans and make us change celebrating their bdays til NEXT weekend...
(no...I'm not bitter much)
2) my dad's health....it's prolly better we are not having a big family gathering at my parents' house. His nerves just don't handle the loudness of us very well anymore. But we could've had it somewhere else.
3) except that my boys wouldn't have been there because they went to Edgefest (an allday concert of Christian hard rock groups) with their dad and his fiancee.

That just left me with Molly....who at 11 1/2 is too old to participate in the town egg hunt, and even tho she did still dye some eggs.....it just wasn't the same.

We still got her an Easter dress and shoes.
I still filled an Easter basket for her..and I do believe she still thinks the Easter bunny is bringing it....at least til she sees it this morning and realizes some of the stuff looks familiar from when we went shopping!

I made up Easter baskets for all the kids in the family...but now can't deliver them til next weekend when we are "allowed" to celebrate the family birthdays.

I'll still sing in the cantata this morning at church.
I do celebrate the true meaning of Easter...but that I do everyday..not just one day a year.

I dunno...
These holiday blues have been hitting me hard again (remember Christmas?)
I like tradition.
I like things to be the same.
I don't like my kids growing up.
I don't like plans changing.

and I don't like being hormonal either!! (which is probably the biggest reason I'm feeling this way.)

I miss my kids being little.
Trey...Easter 1996


Molly...Easter 2001


Matt and Molly coloring eggs..2006

Comments

Barb Smith said…
Oh Rob, it's all a part of life, we grow older and so do our kids. I know how strange it can be as it's happening, too. I'm so sorry it's hitting you so hard. *Hugs*
Peace & Love,
Barb
April 25, 2011 at 12:19 AM
He & Me + 3 said…
I am already starting to miss them being little and I still have one that really "enjoys" the holidays. Life just seems to get so busy it is hard to enjoy the things that we used too. Must make the time. I know I miss it dearly.
April 25, 2011 at 7:59 PM
Kecia said…
I KNOW. It's hitting me hard, too. How did they grow up so fast?
April 30, 2011 at 6:34 PM
Jenny said…
I'm with you, but, if we're lucky, they grow up and go on without us. If we're really lucky, they reward us with grandchildren and you can spoil them all over again!
May 2, 2011 at 9:10 PM
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