Til Death Do Us Part


I went to the funeral of friend's dad today. He and his wife would've been married 40 years this month.

Til Death Do Us Part

No truer words were ever spoken.

It got me thinking...
that statement is true for so many other relationships besides that of a married couple.
*for friends
*for lovers
*for children and parents

I sat there thinking about how that could just as easily be my father in the casket. Her dad had cancer, my dad has emphyzema and COPD, but he still smokes, regardless of being on oxygen 24/7.
What if it were my father?

or my boyfriend?
He's got a bad heart...high blood pressure...takes meds and pops nitro like it's candy some days.

What if that were him in the casket?

or my mother?
What would I do without my mother?? Sure, she drives me crazy with her judgemental ways, but ...she's always there for me. What will I do when she's not?

I realized that I'm at the age now where funerals will become more frequent in my life. Parents of friends, husbands of co-workers, my own friends...or parents. I only have one remaining grandparent, so sure...I do expect that one to come...or my *god*parents.....but what about those other people?

I'm not ready to lose people close to me.
I'm not.

Comments

Barb Smith said…
I went through this same thing but many years ago, when I lost my Mom and Dad. I realized when I lost the two of them just how short life really is for all of us. I have no grandparents and no parents left (unless you count Donne but since I see her as a sister, that doesn't count) and now my brothers and sisters are aging, all being in their 50's and 60's already.

How did time get away from me so fast?

It is a scary prospect, losing those we love, but an inevetability, unfortunately.

RYN: The truth is that I don't have anywhere of comfort anymore. Bloop just feels so "disconnected" for me now, my blogs are just something to take up time but I don't put much of substance in them at all...I just exist. That's about all I'm managing right now.

I really don't know what's wrong with me. But it's not you...I just don't feel like myself.

And yes, email me your entries then I can keep up with you. And if anything important happens (HA!) in my life, I will text or email it to you. We are NOT losing touch, it's just a rough time for me right now.

I love you, Rob.
September 13, 2008 at 9:16 PM
dragonflies on lamp posts said…
I can understand this, having lost both my grandfather and my uncle so close together (for me) it is hard...

and I see my grandmother aging and it scares me.
September 15, 2008 at 10:49 AM
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