~update on the craziness of my life
I think my last post was about all the stress of my family's health issues right now...
Of corurse there is my dad's failing health, and now this thing with my mom...could be rheumatoid arthritis, could be cancer, but whatever it is her tiny little body is ib so much pain that she's barely able to do much more than prepare meals and move around a little, because being still brings on the tremors and seizures from the other nuerological issues she's been dealing with.
And then there's my grandmother, who fell in the ditch, has been taking too many or too few pain pills because she now cant keep them straight and has now developed shingles.
Then, on top of all that...I found out Friday night that my 16 year old nephew has been sent to a place in Little Rock because he told his friends his life sucked so bad he was going to go home and kill himself, so they told the school counselor who luckily got him some help. He will be there another week I think, and says it all started when his first stepdad died 6 years ago.
all this on top of financial issues we are having right now has really got me needing prayers.
I dont tell you all this to get your sympathy or attention, but just to let you know that if I seem "out of it", this is what I'm dealing with right now and ask you to just keep my family in your prayers. I am not use to feeling so out of control in my own life, and some days I cant handle it.
I usually try to just bear my issues alone (well, maybe with a little whining!) but I just feel so bombarded right now. If it were just work, or just my parents, or just our financial issues, or just my nephew....I could handle it. But everything has just overtaken me and I feel ...well, you know. And it's not that I dont realize you all have things going on, or that my stuff is more important than anyone else's...I have just learned through life that if you dont ask for help when you need it, you wont get it. People cant read your mind, and sometimes you have to break down and ask for help. And I'm so thankful to have friends who I know will listen and pray when I need it. I love you all.
You are all important people in my life who I turn to for support and I just felt like I should fill you in so you wouldnt get the wrong idea if I come across as crazy or something. Thank you for listening to all this. I know God will get me through this journey, I'm just not sure which paths He will take me down or how long it will take.
Of corurse there is my dad's failing health, and now this thing with my mom...could be rheumatoid arthritis, could be cancer, but whatever it is her tiny little body is ib so much pain that she's barely able to do much more than prepare meals and move around a little, because being still brings on the tremors and seizures from the other nuerological issues she's been dealing with.
And then there's my grandmother, who fell in the ditch, has been taking too many or too few pain pills because she now cant keep them straight and has now developed shingles.
Then, on top of all that...I found out Friday night that my 16 year old nephew has been sent to a place in Little Rock because he told his friends his life sucked so bad he was going to go home and kill himself, so they told the school counselor who luckily got him some help. He will be there another week I think, and says it all started when his first stepdad died 6 years ago.
all this on top of financial issues we are having right now has really got me needing prayers.
I dont tell you all this to get your sympathy or attention, but just to let you know that if I seem "out of it", this is what I'm dealing with right now and ask you to just keep my family in your prayers. I am not use to feeling so out of control in my own life, and some days I cant handle it.
I usually try to just bear my issues alone (well, maybe with a little whining!) but I just feel so bombarded right now. If it were just work, or just my parents, or just our financial issues, or just my nephew....I could handle it. But everything has just overtaken me and I feel ...well, you know. And it's not that I dont realize you all have things going on, or that my stuff is more important than anyone else's...I have just learned through life that if you dont ask for help when you need it, you wont get it. People cant read your mind, and sometimes you have to break down and ask for help. And I'm so thankful to have friends who I know will listen and pray when I need it. I love you all.
You are all important people in my life who I turn to for support and I just felt like I should fill you in so you wouldnt get the wrong idea if I come across as crazy or something. Thank you for listening to all this. I know God will get me through this journey, I'm just not sure which paths He will take me down or how long it will take.
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I'll pray for your family (and extended family).
We had one year where my hubby was out of work for the whole year. During that time my grandmother died and my mom *almost* died. My parents were both ill and between them were hospitalized about eight times.
That was such a stressful year. But because my hubby was out of work, I was able to leave him with the kids and the homeschooling and just be at the hospital when my parents or grandma was so ill.
It's really hard to have a sick parent (or anyone for that matter). And it's hard to be struggling with finances. But as you said, the Lord will get you through. He got *me* through!
Love ya and I'll be praying.