Taking a Deeper Look part 1



I found this survey thing that I'd never seen before, so I've decided to break it up into parts to take a closer look at myself.

Here's the first part:

**Self Loathing**
What do you hate about yourself?
~Nothing. I don't "hate" anything period.
As for anything about myself I dislike enough to characterize as "hating" it, if I feel that strongly about it then I have a responsibility to do something to change it. But do I? no..not lately. I just gripe about it. Right now it would be my weight. And I know why I'm gaining back everything I took off...but I don't have the motivation to do anything about it.

What do you think people say about you when you're not around?
~oh, I worry about this way more than I should. I worry they say bad stuff..like, "can you believe her?" or "who does she think she is", or..."look at her trying to be all that/fit in"...and then laughing at me.

Who do you think would go to your funeral?
~my family of course...but I do wonder which of my friends woudl be there..sometimes I even worry that none of them would think I was worth the trip here for my funeral.

Of those people, who would be sincere?
~I would hope anyone who bothered to come.

What's the worst thing anyone's ever said to you?
~when people accuse me of doing something on purpose when I haven't. When they won't believe I didn't mean to do something.
Or when my mom accused me of damaging my children by divorcing their father.

What part of your life would you like to forget?
~most of the years 2001/2002. not all..but a lot of it.

What would you change about yourself?
~My eating and fitness habits. I'm REALLY trying to get motivated.

What makes you unhappy?
~when people are hurtful to others, when I'm disappointed by people. When I disappoint people.

Ok...that's the end of this section.
I can see what I need to work on...

The next entry on this will be much more upbeat!!

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